A Secret Can't Go on Forever

[topaz]

It was very interesting how the moon and the sun would take turns being the main character. No fights. Plain fair. Stripedpelt looked around the nursery. The sun was shining through the entrance. She yawned very hard that her jaws ached. Then, with the slash of her tail she slowly walked out of the entrance. As if she had heard a shocking news, she looked behind to see the nursery as she realized she had a kit.How dumb am I? How can I forget that I had a kit! She thought to herself. She forced out a giggle and went step by step to go get Gingerkit. The she-cat paused when her yellow eyes stared at her own shadow thinking 'Time never waits...' Then she continued her pattern of walking.

[Puddyluff]

Gingerkit jerked up, panting. She had been sleeping. How long did I even sleep? thought Gingerkit as she looked around to spot her mother. With a bored sigh, she, once again, sat and waited for her father. I know he'll come today. I can feel it. He'll just come through the nursery's entrance, and he'll race toward me, thought Gingerkit, as she looked around. "Mother, if my father comes back today, I'm going to teach him all the stuff that I can do, like.... er... I'll have to think about that. And then after that, I'm going to make him tell all his stories of what he did while he was gone. Where did he go, anyways?" she meowed. Gingerkit's hope never melted away. She always thought that her father would come that day, and then when he didn't come, she would think, He'll come tomorrow. I know he will. She sat back down calmly and glanced around to see any hints of her father.

The day drifted on.

Gingerkit, who was quite bored, found herself a mossball on the ground. She rolled it all the way to the opposite side of the nursery, and when she realized that she had come so far, she bounced back to her position for any clues of her father.

[topaz]

The feline watched her kit play. She slowly formed a smile on her face. She wasn¡¯t feeling gratified but just a warm feeling wrapped her as she saw her kit. ¡°Gingerkit, you know your father? He was a great warrior. He is watching you now and will always be.¡± Stripedpelt¡¯s mouth moved slowly as she talked. The stripes on her pelt prickled as she thought of Tigerstripe. Then she blew the thought away and padded towards her nest. She knew the words that had escaped her mouth must have confused Gingerkit. And when she figured out the meaning of this, she confidently knew that she was going to let her down and make Gingerkit's faith in her father slowly melt away. Did Stripedpelt want that to happen? Of course not. The last thing she wants to do on earth..or not even do at all is to discourage someone's strong hope in something. But there she is; planning to do it.

[Puddyluff]

Gingerkit looked around to find her father. "Where? I can't see him! W-where?" she stammered, panic rising in her mind. She wasn't ready for this. Then she understood what her mother meant. Her father wasn't watching her from the ground, he was watching her from-where-ever he goes when cats die. StarClan? thought Gingerkit. Then she shook her head , entering the real world and thought, That couldn't be.
Gingerkit's fur prickled as she asked her mother, "Well, can you at least tell me about him?" she hoped her mother would. All her life she had wanted to meet her father, and now her hopes faded away. Suddenly, anger flared in her eyes. Wait a second. My father could have died saving Stripedpelt, thought Gingerkit. "It's all your fault. You're the one who should be blamed." meowed Gingerkit. "Why did you even have me for a kit? I wanted a nice family, with every member of the family alive!"

[topaz]

Stripedpelt was very surprised of how Gingerkit got to understand it so quickly. ¡°No my dear. Your father had died saving our Clan. StreamClan. Not me.¡± She sighed and carried on into the mushy conversation. ¡°And, Gingerkit¡¦there is another family member that you should know about. It¡¯s your¡¦.¡± Her voice trailed off like a wide path leading into a narrow path that you can¡¯t even fit through. Her mouth couldn¡¯t say another word about this. Every single sentence that filled her ear was to harmful. It was tearing her into pieces. She shut her eyes and looked away. Every muscle was tensed. And isn¡¯t this the part where her character is suppose to show? The part of her that was brave and the side that she calls the never giving up feline? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, Gingerkit. Your life, I know. It¡¯s not the best luck you could¡¯ve received but your destiny is right infront of you and nobody can roll it back up. You have to face it, young one. Have hope.¡± All she could feel was worry and sorrow. Life¡¦Why does it have to be so cruel? She thought to herself. No..no. I still have hope. Never going to let go. She slashed her tail in anger of herself. She was being stupid. Trying to let go of a prey she was holding on too. All you had to do was kill it. Kill the pain and the curse is free. "And remember my love one, you always can't get what you want."

[Puddyluff]

Gingerkit sighed and meowed in a sorrowful voice, "I know it isn't your fault mother. It was just- just so shocking." Then she turned around and asked, "Who is the other family member?" Her warm amber eyes glowed with curiosity. "Don't worry, I won't get angry." she promised as she cuddled down next to her mother. "Please?" Her ears pricked up, and she sat, waving her tail, waiting for her mother to reply to the question. Maybe I had a kin that I never got to met, or could it be... another sibling? thought Gingerkit as she nudged her mother to continue what she was trying to stay.
"Please?" begged Gingerkit

[topaz]

A sigh escaped her mouth as she sat down to explain. Gingerkit, you had a stillborn sibling. She had came out dead..." She dropped her tail as she painted the image in her head. A kit...dead...Breathless. A shiver climbed up her spine. With a faint smile she looked at Gingerkit with her eyes warmly. "Now, Gingerkit. Should we go out on a little walk? But not outside camp." She added. Then, she thought of Gingerkit bringing her prey as a apprentice. Gingerpaw. Stripedpelt's eyes sparkled with delight. Her life would soon be filled up with happiness.

ooc;; It sucks...sorry~

[Puddyluff]

Gingerkit forgot about the stillborn sister. Now was more important. She nudged her mother and bounced, and meowed, "Yes!" Well, I'm 5 moons. I should be able to go out of camp, anyways, thought Gingerkit as she bounced to face her mother. Her heart beated. "It's okay, mother. It doesn't matter of what happened before. Now is important." As her warm eyes met her mother's, she meowed, "Well, aren't we going to go, or will we just stand here? I could have been outside by now!" She pushed her mother forward, urging her to go.

[topaz]

She let out a mrrrow of amusement.Then she moved aside to stay away from the force of moving. ¡°Gingerkit, life will give you harsh times but also happy times too. So, you have to learn how to swallow it.¡± She meowed to Gingerkit. And Stripedpelt understood it perfectly. Obtaining the love from a family was very important to kits¡¦But she felt so sorry that Gingerkit didn¡¯t. Now the backstairs of the family was revealed to Gingerkit. The worst thing that can ever happen to Ginerkit is her waiving up all the hope she had planted deep inside her. Stripedpelt¡¯s duty was to keep on watering and feeding it so that it doesn¡¯t die out.

[Puddyluff]

Gingerkit cocked her head with the I-don't-know-what-you're-talking-about face. Oh well, who cares. I just want to get out! "Mother! I could turn into an elder while waiting for you." she meowed. "Aren't we going?" she meowed with her most impatient voice. She smile to her most cutest kit-look and meowed, "Come on!" Gingerkit didn't wait for her mother. She just dodged past her mother, waiting for her to panic and race towards her.
When Gingerkit arrived right outside the nursery, she looked around for something to do. Then she noticed that her mother wasn't there. Panic rose in Gingerkit's mind. Where is she? "Mother!" she called. She sweeped up the dust from the floor by waving her tail across the ground.