just keep yer heart beat, ba-beat-beat beating ~

[Crowzerplorodon]

//in b4 insanity


Crow's losing his marbles. Or, if you're not a fan of cliches, he's missing some puzzle pieces.

Anyway, real life is being a real piece of "fff" with a side of "incoherent keysmash", and Crow would like to remedy that with some relaxing time with y'all. But apparently, yer slightly-insane admin can't handle y'all right now, and needs a general break from the Internet. Crow needs some times to grab a hold of life again, so that he can be the admin y'all deserve. k? k.

So Crow's gonna take a break. He'll try to keep up with role play, so if he's needed, PM or email. Email would probably work better. But he'll be... gone fer a bit. But do not worry. Nothing any of y'all did caused this. It is not yer fault at all. Please do not think it is because I swear to buckets it is not. This evening just made Crow realize he does need a break, is all.

+ his after school activities are starting up again because the snow's finally clearing.

So, until Crow finds his place again, au revoir. ♥

[Pyro]

WE WILL MISS YOU. ;3;

But you deserve a rest. x3 Just take your time, collect your thoughts, and take it easy.

[|| allie]

:( :( bye, crow, i'll miss you lots. ♥
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[k o a l a ?!]

d'aw, crow. you deserve a rest with all that you do with this site. come back when you're ready!

[sophie]

Bye Crowness. :c
Come back when you feel...better?

[Whiskers]

Oh Crow! D: Ahhh -clingclingcling-

Come back as soon as you can, and until then, I promise FoF is in good hands. :3

[Crowzerplorodon]

idk how to say this, but my hiatus is gonna become an indefinite leave.

There's been a death in the family, someone's got cancer, the marriage thing is coming back to haunt me, and everything is generally in the crapper. idk what I'm going to do anymore, because, and I won't lie, I've had some pretty negative thoughts lately.

But yeah, I don't know when I'll be back, if ever. I'm so sorry. Y'all don't deserve this. Y'all need an awesome admin who doesn't fall into crap and leave y'all behind. Sorry. So sorry.

So again, I don't know when (if) I'll be back. If it comes to it, ask Kelly about skins, she knows how to make them. I've emailed her my account's password already, just in case.

And please put my cats up for adoption, albeit I'll want them back if I return. Cloudstar, Blackpaw, and Silverflower especially, as they're rankings/part of a plot.

... so yeah. I'll miss y'all.

[Cloud of Diamonds]

...the world is ending. ;_______________________________________________________;

[Rolo]

Right, ok Crow ^^ I totally understand.

I am... truly truly sorry to hear about what's happening to you. I mean, seriously. I was on the brink of tears when I read it all... I really really empathise with you. I just want things to get better for you, so much so that I've already considered giving you personal details so I can actually /do/ something for once. I still might.

Please don't worry about FoF. I'll take care of it, and try my utmost to keep it safe and alive. Don't feel bad at all. Honestly, you're seriously the best admin I've ever seen (by quite some margin. And you should know I don't say that kinda thing easily) and this place owes a lot to you for the time you've given it. You owe us nothing, you haven't failed any of us. Not at any point. Don't feel like that, ever. FoF wouldn't be where it was today without you.

However... there's one thing I beg of you... please please let me talk to you. I don't want to lose you, Crow. You matter too much. And I can't bare seeing you hurt. I swore we would never lose contact and I frikkin mean it. It doesn't matter if you don't come on FoF again... just please allow me to speak to you. BUT only when you're ready! Not to council you, just to be there for you. Or I'll have to swim that damn ocean again.

On a more... technical note, I will need you to give me full admin powers and access to the coding. At the moment, I cannot elect new staff, reorganise boards or send out emails, and if I am to run this place smoothly, I will need all these things. If you could do that for me, I would much appreciate it. Don't worry, I do know how to work my way round an admin panel, and anything I don't know I'll learn (but I'll leave the coding to Kelly).

If my tone here swings wildly out of control, don't take offence. I'm sad and it's effecting my ability to express myself correctly.

[Whiskers]

Crow... Crow I'm so so so so sorry. I can't believe you're going... I can't believe that what's happening to you is happening. You're such a good person, you don't deserve this.

But I don't want to...cry and I don't want to feel sorry for myself or for you. More than anything, I want to thank you for all that you've done. For me, for the site... for everyone.

If it wasn't for you and this site, I wouldn't be who I am today. FoF has shaped me in ways you can't possibly imagine. I've become more adept at writing and creating characters, I've become more confident in myself and my abilities (and I'm getting more confident every day) and I've recovered from internet bullying, all because you made it possible for me to trust again. You allowed me to...to share myself, my life, with people I don't technically know. It's all because of you and FoF.

You have created a community where people can grow and laugh and be themselves. It is so unique, so special, and you should be very very very proud.

So thank you, Crow. Thank you, thank you, thank you. You have given a gift to so many people and you have changed my life forever. You will be missed. But, if ever you can come back, FoF will wait for you. No way will FoF die-- it still has many many months left in it, and it will continue to touch people's lives. I will make sure of this.

All I ask for you is to remember us and to try and keep in touch, like Rolo has asked you to-- and be happy! Please, find a way to be happy. I know I sound cliche, but life is too short and you can never smile enough.

I love you, Crow. Thanks for... everything.