an innocent poet's vengeance [ HALLOWEEN 2010 ]

[♫ poltergeist ♥]

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THIS TWISTED WORLD
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what a twisted world we live in.
it's filled with crime, wreckage, and sin.
no matter who we are or where we go,
you'll find our scars on earth are thicker than snow.

we sit, we wait, we watch, we cry;
helplessly watching as the time flies by.
but that's just how our lives unfold,
listening to stories, lies that we've told.

we sat back in the corner and wait for life
to bring up what we're searching for -- a husband, a wife.
after all the tolerance, welcome, and faith,
we lose all of our feeling; we don't feel safe.

we cry when people tell us it's all wrong;
we sit, we laugh, we sing the same stupid song.
we expect too much from this planet we own,
polluting the air with damn planes that we've flown.

but that's just how our lives must kill,
watching the rain fall on the windowsill.
we smoke, we drink, we do damned drugs --
forgetting the sweet innocence of juvenile hugs.

behind all the lies and screaming and breaking,
we see small souls, their bodies shaking.
we expect too much; we try too hard.
we cut the earth open with a glossy shard.

we try to fight, to live, to win;
we kill our friends, our lovers, our kin.
without acknowledging another soul,
we kill our animals -- a cat, a dog, a foal.

we don't recognise our friends' faces in the crowd;
we can't hear their voices -- everyone else is too loud.
we cry, we scream, we laugh, we sigh;
we jump, we leap, we smile, we die.

we lay on the ground and wait,
wanting to see someone not filled with hate.
but that's just how our lives work out,
hearing not a cry, a whisper or a shout.

we sit so impatiently, clinging on to life.
we watch in man in front of us rip out his knife.
we tell ourselves we'll be okay.
waiting for the end of each bloody day.

the edges of our vision flash dark red,
looking on down to see a brother's head.
we're so inconsiderate of those around;
we laugh, we mock, we lie til they hit the ground.

none of their faces seem familiar anymore;
our minds are behind us now, trying to soar.
but that's just how our lives forget the need;
yes, this is a twisted world indeed.

[♫ poltergeist ♥]

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ALONE IN THE SNOW
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you told me you would love me until the end.
you promised you'd hold me through each twisted bend.
you said i'd never lose you as long as i stayed true.
you laughed when i promised i was devoted to you.

you held true to your word; our love was great.
it wasn't until you told me you felt not love, but hate.
our love was a joke, a lie, a dream that left me numb.
you left my crying on the road -- mute, deaf, and dumb.

you stole away my senses as you drove into the night.
i tried to stumble after you in darkness, without sight.
you told all our friends that i was the one to go,
not admitting to them that you'd left me in the snow.

i tried to return, tried to find some sort of path;
you left me alone; i could hear your sweet laugh.
the smell of your breath hovered as you snickered by my ear.
my tears froze on my cheeks when you said that nobody would find me here.

they turned to blood as you cut open my face;
i tried to wash it off with a black corner of lace.
you laughed at my pain, the silence i held.
you broke off my necklace, one you'd tried to meld.

down i fell as you kicked me away.
when again i tried to stand, you laughed at my sway.
then you finally said you were sorry, grabbing my hand.
the voices quieted; i could feel snowy land.

i instantly forgave you for everything that you had done.
you pulled me away, told me it was time to come
back to the house, the memories we'd perfectly made --
but as we walked, you somehow began to fade.

it was then that i realised you were my fevered mind playing tricks --
your hallucination laughed as i stumbled over burnt sticks.
my eyes were glazed by the time i managed to rise;
and when i looked down, blood covered my otherwise bare thighs.

your cruelty astounded me -- you were so inhumane!
but i still couldn't see as you cut open a thick vein.
i choked on the air and began to fall,
watching the scene transform to the upstairs hall.

you laughed as you pushed me down the stairs,
telling me nobody would come because nobody cares.
as my head hit the floor, my vision went black --
the voices in my head told me my skull had a crack.

i told them it was all over anyway,
and at that point, my life decided to run away.