Ember's Crazy Little Thoughts

[Ember]

Well, I caved and got a diary...I don't really care if you guys look or not...You may be able to help with some of my problems.

Dear Diary,

I have guy problems. Last year I started liking a guy named Josh. I found out he liked me and we started going out. He is a preacher's kid so he wasn't supposed to have a girlfriend. We went out behind his parent's back and they later found out about it. We still went out, but we got into huge trouble when were caught kissing. We still kept going out, when finally he decided he wasn't ready to have a girlfriend and we broke up. That was in December. We still liked each other and it was almost like we never broke up. We still loved each other. He still looked at me the same. Well, about a month ago he stopped acting the way he used to. Started being more teasing towards me, I like that...but he would never do it when we liked each other. He still looks at me and smiles at me...but I don't really think he likes me anymore, but I like him. Well I met someone named Matt. He's about a year older than me and and we're pretty good friends already. We were all in the Sound of Music together and he was my escort for the party scene. So basically we played a married couple so he nicknamed me Honey and Wifey. I have nicknamed him Honey and Hubby. We even have our own inside jokes. I knew that I had a potential of starting to like him, but I told myself I wouldn't fall for him. He told me at one of the performances that I had a beautiful smile and looked me straight in the eyes just how Josh had used to. The next day, I started getting butterflies when I saw him. I had fallen for him. So I was like great...now what am I going to do? I still like Josh and now I like Matt. What should I do?

Sincerely,
Ember

PS: I can't talk to my best friend about this because one of her close friends likes Matt too. And she'll just tell me what she told me last time. That I'm not right for him.

[glowlynose]

Well, to me, it sounds like you have a serious case of infatuation. Falling in love with someone takes more than a look. That's not to say that you're not falling in love, it's just that there's not some magical threshold that you cross over and it's suddenly as "in love" as you'll ever be. It's a constant process. So don't feel yourself into thinking you're in love. If you can, guard your heart.

As for what you should do, I don't rightly know. I'd say you should have a talk with both of them (not at the same time) and explain what's going on, but I know that can be awkward and possibly undesirable. So I really don't know. Just keep feeling things out, I guess.

[Ember]

I know, it's hard though. I'm not exactly in love with Matt. But i know I am with Josh. I've known him from a year today and have liked him ever since.